fall in KOREA

Long time not post any post! Wkwkwk.. and my passion has changed a lot in a blink of eye!

Hihihi.. no, I didn’t  change my old passion, I still love fashion, make up, sewing, styling, cats, food, stalking (oops).. hahaha but it is expanded.. I’m falling in love with KOREA! It was starting when I watch K-drama, the title is “Personal Taste” staring Lee Min Ho and Son Ye Jin (you all must don’t have any idea about who they are!).. I used to crazy about K-Drama, when I watched Full House, Memories in Bali, Lovers in Paris and the most Booming K-Drama.. the Gun Jun pyo drama .. Boys Before Flowers (F4)., but along with the film ended, my hysteria was extinguished. And now, I became crazy anymore about KOREA! I watched the drama all night long, I keep on curious until the end of episode, and suddenly awaken by the call of prayer at dawn (adzan subuh maksudnyee).. it is totally crazy that I really stunned with the character in the drama, they are all have natural acting character, unaffected acting!

It is so easy to fall in love with them! Until I thought that I have to know more about them, I became so excited to know everything about KOREA! I am learning the language, read about the history, follow all the Kpop news, and dreaming to step my foot on INCHEON International Airport someday..

Sorry if I will talk more about KOREA in my next post.. and don’t misunderstood, I still love Indonesia  on the top of any country in the world. 

i love this K-Drama Couple at Personal Taste

How can i resist him? i am officially MINOZ ( Lee Min Ho Fans Club) after watched 'PERSONAL TASTE'

The Adorable Park Si Hoo (The Princess Man, Queen of Reversals, Prosecutor Princess)

Annyeong! (Goodbye in KOREAN)

Sex Education. Don't say it taboo anymore..

Do you ever notice your genital? Before last Sunday, I never knew my own genital until a friend of mind , Boti,  gave me and some of my other friends a short counseling about reproductive system or genital system. I don’t know who create the first error about this comprehension that something which is connected with genital considers taboo. But this comprehension Is already embedded and entrenched in our culture, u can’t talk about ‘a dirty things’ (they call it to comprehend a genital system) until you get married. I have realized that the theory of ‘taboo things’ has lead many teenagers to an ignorance of sex education. I don’t want to talk much about the bad things that happened as a result of misunderstanding comprehension of sex education, but I this time I will emphasize to how much you know about your own genital system?

My friend told me that we , at least once in a lifetime, have to take a look our own genital by means look it in a mirror! Of course by yourself, except you have husband or wife, u can mirror and learn together about your spouse’s genital. Before knew it important, I never thought to look my own genital in a mirror, I just thought that what we looked on picture or video is alike with mine. But I was wrong. Every human have their own characteristic of genital system, and it is important to everyone knows her/his own genital system.  It is useful to detect genital disease early, to know more what is good for you or what is bad for your genital, and the important thing is to respect ourselves, yes, how could people respect us if we don’t know all parts of ourselves? 

My friend also gave me information about contraception, it is important when we plan to marry.  We don’t want to have a baby each year right? Except you plan that way.. He told me that communication with our spouse consider sex education that can keep away you from sex violence. We, as individual, have a right to choose.  For example if you plan to postpone having a baby, you have to make a win-win solution with your spouse what contraception will be used.  I never thought that far before, but sooner or later, I will face that circumstance.  It is not a taboo matter to discuss if you relate it with health. I consider it as a brilliant information that I never thought it is important before. 

I have some bad stories how lacking of sex education has snatched the future of some of my relatives. They never knew the information early, so what has happened was they got sex violence from their boyfriend, and end up with unwanted pregnancy. I really don’t want it happen with my children in the future, I have to know the right information about sex education, and I will educate my children in their earlier ages than when I was know about it. It’s not taboo anymore, to know that the largest woman death cause is breast cancer and HPV cancer. You can do something from now, at least in your closest circle. 

.......i wish someday i will able to erase this post..

Sometimes in my life,  I feel unlucky for some things that I possess ,precisely the destiny that I have, even things that has been attached to me since I was born.

I never want to replace my life with others, never ever, I thankful the life that God has given me.

But the feeling of wistful always comes when I feel there are some parts of my life which not gratify me. Everybody does, it’s not an uncommon thing, it’s so human, no?

I know, when I was complaining about the life I live in, many people are dying to reach the place where I am to be. How could I keep complaining, while there are millions reasons for me to be thankful and feel blessed?

Directly to the point,

now, i h**e someone.

He should be loved by me.

To love him is an obligation for me.

It’s different love when you love your boyfriend.

His blood is in me. That’s why, respect and love him is a must.

I don’t know when I was starting to dislike him.

The thing for sure, I am hurt because he has betrayed me and some people whom I love the most in my life.

Betraying always leads to revenge.

I don’t want to take a revenge for what he did to me and people whom I love.

It’s not a good thing.

I should forgive him, but I can’t.

I have God.

God will know the most proper punishment for Him.

Actually, I don’t want to hurt him like he did.

I don’t want make the situation hard for us.

I know he is kind.

He just lost the way.

I play my role better than him.

I’ve did everything to make him proud.

Yes, I know he’s a human, he could do mistakes like I did.

But it’s getting worse when he doesn’t fix the mistakes.

I’m so easy to forgive him who hurt me, but I will never forget what he did to me.

I don’t want God hates me because of this.

It’s something that is so wrong to hate you.

I want love you, but I wish u could change.

I don’t wanna live in a shadow of your childish attitude.

It’s enough P.