IED MUBARAK 1433 H

Dear Family, Friends, and all people i've met.. Sorry for all mistakes i've made, God bless us for everything we'll do in year ahead.. :) Happy Lebaran..

HANBOK EXPERIENCE @ KOREA CULTURE CENTRE INDONESIA

I participated Hanbok Experience at Korea Cultural Centre Indonesia ( SCBD Equity Tower , 17th floor) on 11st May 2012 with my fellow Jihwanesia from Kang Ji Hwan Indonesia Fanbase. It was a fun! i've got some new friends and we talked everything like we've known each other for a long time. I'm enjoying my life so much , there is no one whom i am scared to face anymore.. i mean , my boss .. :) anyway i am back to TVRI now and i did my small business well , @caraleashop .. i love do my things and love my everyday activity.. i have been doing part time tutoring and it is so fun, i love my students :) 

Java Jazz Festival 2012

WOWWW my life has been so amazing lately.. so many things happened.. it's a turning point.. i've resigned from office on 19th February 2012.. and everything turn out to be different! it could more than one post if i have to tell you all what was happened.. but i will tell you briefly that i feel so free now and i can do what i want to do without any burden.. okey i'm not denying that financial thing is the only thing that puzzled me now.. but i believe i could cope with this thing,,,

anyway.. a friend of mine gave me two days freepass on last java jazz festival.. it's amazing.. since i love jazz very much! and i could watch my favorite jazz musician live  performance..im so amazed by them!! will watch next year Java Jazz festival, Insya Allah :) let the photos tell you :)

Depapepe (duo guitar instrument from Japan).. i love them! :)

Erykah Badu , the star of the day

Rika Roeslan & Glen Fredly

Laura Figy

The beautiful Raisa

Stevie Wonder.. the greatest of all!

February Blossom

It’s February.. the most lovely month off all.. hihihi it’s not because people celebrate Valentine’s day, but this month is my bday  month.

I’m kind of freakin out.. I’m turning 24 soon.. remember when I was a child.. what I was thinking about a women of 24 is a mature, they are ready to marry and have a baby.

It’s so ridiculous that now I’m on that stage.. and I don’t think I am mature in this age. I can earn sum of bucks to cover all my needs now, but mentally I feel so immature.. I couldn’t be far away from my mom, I’m still depend on her for everything. I’m still thinking when I get trouble, my parents will help me anyway, so I don’t have to be afraid of anything. I don’t depend my self to solve my problem. Is it happen to everyone or is it just me? before the day I’m turning 24 coming, I want to list some facts about me.. all are random things..to nudge my senses.. :)

1.       I’m running a great Korean actor fanbase for Indonesia @KangJiHwanIndo , I’m having so much fun to do this, I love Kang Ji Hwan not because he is good looking (but undeniable, handsome is one point), but because his great work on acting.. he is not the one who worrying much about being perfect in front of public, but he did worry about being ugly in acting! I’ll make a review of this actor in another post. It’s too short to make it just one point hehehe.

2.       I love make up so much that I’m thinking to make this new fondness to be my future carrier. I love to transform people to be different from they are in common. I do myself experiment when I go to work.. People will think that  I am too much, ..who cares if you disagree, you are not me.. who made you KING OF ANYTHING?? (Lah jadi nyanyiiii..) :p

3.       I have a new hobby : watching Kdrama until late at night.. or before I go to sleep I have to watch Kdrama or Kmovie at least one episode!

4.       I love Kpop too.. 70% of my ipod song list is korean song. I love 2NE1, IU, and listening a lot to Kdrama original soundtrack.. I could listen ost. My fair lady ( I Love You) like thousand times or jingle Lotte Duty Free..i like the jingle so much that I could listen the song hundred times!

5.       I can’t sleep before 12 AM.

6.       I have an obsession to Bebek Slamet (brand of spicy fried duck that has super DEAD HOT chili). I have regular time to eat that. Now it become exaggerating, i eat two portion of this  spicy fried duck in time! Hehehe one is not enough!

7.       I love my bed room so much, especially my bed side table where I put all my make up utensils.

8.       I have to kiss chilo before I leave home.

9.       I had weird dreams lately.. most of them is about the thing in the future that I’m worrying so much.. I wish I could meet Kang Ji Hwan in my dream hufhhh..

10.   I’m on the stage of enjoying my life so much, not worrying so much about what will happen in the future or the past that hurts me a lot. I have lots of obsession but it keeps me chills to face the reality.. I know Who direct my life so well, so I trust Him to do the best on my life script.

11.   I want anything that I want on my birthday hahahaha my last year birthday is a dream come true.. I don’t ask anything more than that.. I’m grateful more than I expected.

Eleven… means.. this month of eleven is… hahahahahhahahaha… see ya..

Puche & Panji's wedding

what to say? i just love all the details on their wedding reception! the bride's dress is amazing! Javanese style, tradisional yet beautiful, Puche was like a real princess at that day! and the glowing face of the groom, Panji, completed the sacral ceremony. I also like the decoration and the ambiance. The food was delicious. Unfortunately i didn't eat much since many friends were gathered and i prefer to have a conversation with them, it makes me happy. you know the adage from Kang Ji Hwan's movie The relationship of face, mind and love? "if your heart is full so is your stomach" hehehe. I met many old friends there.
btw, the 'project' i've said in the post before is consider success, Alhamdulillah, i could finish the make up things and jilbab do on time, though so many shortcoming here and there.. it's OK since it is our first time.. :))
i love Cunies uniform! i thought that we are the best decoration in Puche's reception hahahhaha..
take a look at the photos taken by my friends (bubuw, mamet, and upa)..

the groom and the bride

the adorable dress

cunnies

bestfriends

the girls

Happy New Year 2012

today is the second day of new year.. the memories of  New Year celebration are still fresh in my mind.. i don't have special event to conduct on last new year eve, only a pasta dinner and snacks with my big family.. not like last year, we always had Barbequing time .. we just had spaghetti dinner and snacks. The most awaiting moment was 15 minutes before 00.00 of January 1st 2012.. suddenly the sky was bright and 'Boom.. Boomm" sound heard everywhere..yes FIREWORKS everywhere.. me n my cousins run into my second floor house to see the fireworks clearly.. the beautiful sky sparkling moment  lasted almost 20 minutes.. and we were 'woowing' everytime the fireworks popping.. it's a very great moment.. we don't pay anything for the fireworks but enjoying they who have a kind-hearted igniting the fireworks because they have given us free entertaiment.. wohooo..
The next day, me and my Family go to Bandar Jakarta BSD (The Flavor Bliss Alam Sutera) to have lunch and family gathering.. after that, we went to Living World Mall, it's a big mall outside Jakarta! they have the biggest ACE hardware and Informa in town! my parents, my brother and my aunty bought some house ware.. i want to buy.. all, so that i didn't buy anything tough hahahhaha.. after that we have another 'dessert time' at Island Creamery at The Flavor Bliss.. they have yummy dessert, ice cream and burger! anyway.. the flavor bliss is very good place, all 'HITZ' restaurants (such as Sushi Tei, Nanny's pancake, Island creamery, etc) are available there with more stunning interior design, you can take beautiful photo there because there are so many attractive spot .. and of course yummy foods! I love my family and love to gather with them.. :)

Apple Pie + Vanila Ice Cream @ Island Creamery.. super Yummy!

this Ice CREAM is like a dummy ,, not real.. but surprisingly taste GOOD!

yeah.. my boyfie also joined the family gathering hehehe

SEAFOOD

whole family members

2011 kaleidoscope

A year, always full of memories, good or bad, fortunate or unfortunate, get or loose, stay or gone.. but each year has  its own story. 2011 is an amazing year for me. this is the year which I could say… my fortunate year..Beyond my expectation.. My year of grant..but of course some sad stories contained.

I will make a kaleidoscope of this year within per month..

January

This Is beginning of the year.. when I was fighting to get a place in BPK ( The Supreme Audit Agency). I’ve passed the fourth round. I’m the biggest three, but they need only two people there. I was waiting for the final result on March.

February

My unforgettable birthday ever! Celebrating my birthday in BALI.. with my boyfie, my cousin and my friend,, Rock Bar at Ayana Resort to be the exact venue for my birthday. I felt so happy that day, and felt blessed.. it was the best holiday in my life.

March

BIG FAILURE. I’m the one who wiped out on the big three of BPK employee selection. It likes standing at the edge of the cliff and you finally fall down. But at the end I could handle it, I believe that Allah SWT has a better plan for me in the future. Oh yaaa.. in this month, uni Gina and Ferdy got married. Uni Gina is Ghani’s sister, my future sister-in-law , Insya Allah :).

April

Nothing special happened in this month, but I remember I changed my hijab style a lot,was trying this and that..and finally got the comfortable one.. yeah.. it’s a process to be a better of myself hehe.

Mei

I experienced Quarter- life syndrome.. hehehe.. that time was the worst, I really want to speed up my stage of life, I wasn’t comfortable with my life at that time. Actually because I’ve got so many wedding invitations, I felt that I’m left behind. Hahaha but thank God it just temporary. I’m going back to the track, and think more positively.

This is the great month for my Big family, we went to BALI, denpasar to attend my cousin’s Wedding. Yes, Ka Devi and wahyu were finally married couple. It’s been a long time my Big Family didn’t have an outside town trip. I love that moment so much! Alhamdulillah we’ve made it. I wish that we could have some trip again, next year. Amin.

June

I met a friend from cyber world.. she’s lovely Nanda, we planned to have a brand clothing and share our dreams to be an entrepreneur. Untill now, it hasn’t been real, but I wish someday I could make it. It’s only a matter of time and … hmmmm.. money I think.. hahha

In this month my two best friend were moving to outside Jakarta. Mba dita and Ummah. Mba Dita has come back to Jakarta.. Ummah still lives in Gorontalo. But we are still in frequent contact.

July

My Boyfie birthday L unfortunately I couldn’t make it special just like he did on my birthday, but he said it wasn’t a matter at all as long as I was there by his side.hahaha isn’t he lovely? Hehe, we just went to Senayan City to see Transformer exhibition, and have a delicious ‘late lunch’ on Pancious.

August

Hehehehe I was participated in Muslimah Beauty 2011. That’s all I can say. :)

September

Ied Fitri. Always became a special moment for my family. But there is some sad story from my family. Despite all, I keep grateful for everything that happened in mya life. Thank Allah SWT.

October

Another surprise from Allah SWT. I couldn’t imagine before this happened. I went to Singapore! That is the first time i was going abroad. Great experienced and I am super duper happy.

And still  in this month, my another dream came true! I could watch a concert  from my favorite boyband since I was junior hi school. WESTLIFE! I’m super glad!

Seems the goddess of October has fallen in love with me, He gives a great gift on this month hehehe.

November

KOREA.The month I was starting again to crazy a lot about Korea, it is The drama, the foods, the actors, the music the culture and the country that make me fall in love much much much about Korea. I can forget all the burden and being more happy after watching Korean drama or film. It just like a drug to me! I wish I could be there someday to feel everything that now, I just can see on the screen.. Amin ya Allah.

December

I’m getting crazy about make up! I’m learning so much the right technique of make up and suddenly many opportunities came to me. I will continue learning about make up and many thing. I still have a debt, I should have able to sew, but until now, it is pending. I wish next year I could learn many things.

To conclude all, 2011 is such a blessing year for me. I could get rid of all the pain and loose because the happiness I’ve got in this year has covered all my unfortunate. Allah SWT has given me MANY that I couldn’t have any reason to deny. I always wishing my future story will have greater plot. Psssttt.. 2012.. maybe I will change my status?? Let’s pray for the best :)

Puche & Panji's wedding preparation

i will have my first project on Puche & Panji's wedding reception on January 15th 2012. The project is do the make up and jilbab for 15 ladies who are Puche & Panji's relatives. Yesterday is our final meeting before the day. We were discussing about the make up equipments but most of time we were chewing.. hahaha Puche always have many great foods for us when we came to her house. hehehe wish me and sari lot of luck on the day of Panji and Puche. I only hope one thing, that the ladies will not complaint, at least if it is happened, not in front of me and sarie hahaha :p. 

left-right : the bride to be Puche, me, sari, ghani & mamet

me. seated next the bride to be, and i hope i will be the next bride.. hehe.. ngarep.com

make up

i'm obsessed with make up lately, i don't know when it was started but it was happened gradually. I never go to a salon or a beauty center frequently, i hate spending hours in salon, i do a body and hair treatment in my home, even when i have to attend a special occasion, i do my make up by my self . I'm not expert of course, but i'm enjoying 'trial and error process' of my make up skill. Now, i'm collecting make up tools, yes they are expensive! in make up : you have money you'll get quality. so, i'm getting frustrated when i realized that my 40 % expense was spent to buy make up tools. I hope this hobby will earn back my money.. hmm let's see my first project in January, i will do a make up and jilbab do for Puche & Panji's wedding committee.

Talking about my inspiration on make up, i really love natural, flawless and subtle but look stunning. and i,m fallin in love with Jung Saem Mool make up style. She proves us that make up not always put everything colorful and make you face like 'a clown'. With a right technique and right material, you can make your face stunning and different. i can't explain more in good words, just check her Youtube channel  here or FB .. and i bet you will fall in love with her make up style!

this one is my favourite video, for everyday look!

Happy Birthday Mom

Today is my mother birthday, She's half a century now. Wow..  she's getting older and i look her stronger day by day.. and i love her more for what she does to me everyday.. serving me a breakfast, making me carrot juice , and do a laundry for my clothes. i shouldn't let her do all the housework she does everyday, but she keep on assuring me that she is fine. sometimes and recently it becomes often that i can let myself live without her presence, i don't have much conversation with her on our daily life,  but just to see her face, i can go through all difficulties in my life. i need her to be around me everytime i need, because her advices always make me  dissolved. Her voice like The God's voice to me. And i'm so scare now,  cause i'm not to be the girl that she expected. I'll try to make it up for her.. Happy Birthday Ibu.. Ridha sayang ibu..

fall in KOREA

Long time not post any post! Wkwkwk.. and my passion has changed a lot in a blink of eye!

Hihihi.. no, I didn’t  change my old passion, I still love fashion, make up, sewing, styling, cats, food, stalking (oops).. hahaha but it is expanded.. I’m falling in love with KOREA! It was starting when I watch K-drama, the title is “Personal Taste” staring Lee Min Ho and Son Ye Jin (you all must don’t have any idea about who they are!).. I used to crazy about K-Drama, when I watched Full House, Memories in Bali, Lovers in Paris and the most Booming K-Drama.. the Gun Jun pyo drama .. Boys Before Flowers (F4)., but along with the film ended, my hysteria was extinguished. And now, I became crazy anymore about KOREA! I watched the drama all night long, I keep on curious until the end of episode, and suddenly awaken by the call of prayer at dawn (adzan subuh maksudnyee).. it is totally crazy that I really stunned with the character in the drama, they are all have natural acting character, unaffected acting!

It is so easy to fall in love with them! Until I thought that I have to know more about them, I became so excited to know everything about KOREA! I am learning the language, read about the history, follow all the Kpop news, and dreaming to step my foot on INCHEON International Airport someday..

Sorry if I will talk more about KOREA in my next post.. and don’t misunderstood, I still love Indonesia  on the top of any country in the world. 

i love this K-Drama Couple at Personal Taste

How can i resist him? i am officially MINOZ ( Lee Min Ho Fans Club) after watched 'PERSONAL TASTE'

The Adorable Park Si Hoo (The Princess Man, Queen of Reversals, Prosecutor Princess)

Annyeong! (Goodbye in KOREAN)

Sex Education. Don't say it taboo anymore..

Do you ever notice your genital? Before last Sunday, I never knew my own genital until a friend of mind , Boti,  gave me and some of my other friends a short counseling about reproductive system or genital system. I don’t know who create the first error about this comprehension that something which is connected with genital considers taboo. But this comprehension Is already embedded and entrenched in our culture, u can’t talk about ‘a dirty things’ (they call it to comprehend a genital system) until you get married. I have realized that the theory of ‘taboo things’ has lead many teenagers to an ignorance of sex education. I don’t want to talk much about the bad things that happened as a result of misunderstanding comprehension of sex education, but I this time I will emphasize to how much you know about your own genital system?

My friend told me that we , at least once in a lifetime, have to take a look our own genital by means look it in a mirror! Of course by yourself, except you have husband or wife, u can mirror and learn together about your spouse’s genital. Before knew it important, I never thought to look my own genital in a mirror, I just thought that what we looked on picture or video is alike with mine. But I was wrong. Every human have their own characteristic of genital system, and it is important to everyone knows her/his own genital system.  It is useful to detect genital disease early, to know more what is good for you or what is bad for your genital, and the important thing is to respect ourselves, yes, how could people respect us if we don’t know all parts of ourselves? 

My friend also gave me information about contraception, it is important when we plan to marry.  We don’t want to have a baby each year right? Except you plan that way.. He told me that communication with our spouse consider sex education that can keep away you from sex violence. We, as individual, have a right to choose.  For example if you plan to postpone having a baby, you have to make a win-win solution with your spouse what contraception will be used.  I never thought that far before, but sooner or later, I will face that circumstance.  It is not a taboo matter to discuss if you relate it with health. I consider it as a brilliant information that I never thought it is important before. 

I have some bad stories how lacking of sex education has snatched the future of some of my relatives. They never knew the information early, so what has happened was they got sex violence from their boyfriend, and end up with unwanted pregnancy. I really don’t want it happen with my children in the future, I have to know the right information about sex education, and I will educate my children in their earlier ages than when I was know about it. It’s not taboo anymore, to know that the largest woman death cause is breast cancer and HPV cancer. You can do something from now, at least in your closest circle. 

.......i wish someday i will able to erase this post..

Sometimes in my life,  I feel unlucky for some things that I possess ,precisely the destiny that I have, even things that has been attached to me since I was born.

I never want to replace my life with others, never ever, I thankful the life that God has given me.

But the feeling of wistful always comes when I feel there are some parts of my life which not gratify me. Everybody does, it’s not an uncommon thing, it’s so human, no?

I know, when I was complaining about the life I live in, many people are dying to reach the place where I am to be. How could I keep complaining, while there are millions reasons for me to be thankful and feel blessed?

Directly to the point,

now, i h**e someone.

He should be loved by me.

To love him is an obligation for me.

It’s different love when you love your boyfriend.

His blood is in me. That’s why, respect and love him is a must.

I don’t know when I was starting to dislike him.

The thing for sure, I am hurt because he has betrayed me and some people whom I love the most in my life.

Betraying always leads to revenge.

I don’t want to take a revenge for what he did to me and people whom I love.

It’s not a good thing.

I should forgive him, but I can’t.

I have God.

God will know the most proper punishment for Him.

Actually, I don’t want to hurt him like he did.

I don’t want make the situation hard for us.

I know he is kind.

He just lost the way.

I play my role better than him.

I’ve did everything to make him proud.

Yes, I know he’s a human, he could do mistakes like I did.

But it’s getting worse when he doesn’t fix the mistakes.

I’m so easy to forgive him who hurt me, but I will never forget what he did to me.

I don’t want God hates me because of this.

It’s something that is so wrong to hate you.

I want love you, but I wish u could change.

I don’t wanna live in a shadow of your childish attitude.

It’s enough P.