misleading intention

I feel like someone slapped on my face hardly after I read this post. Thank you anyway for Maria Elena for her great post. Last night I read someone tweeted in my timeline, he said that it’s not impossible to a woman who is having her period to get Lailatul Qadr. And now in my having period I feel that a hidayah has come to me. It’s in coincidental or this is just the Allah SWT shows me the way, but anything it could be, I thank a lot for this enlightenment. 

It begins yesterday when I saw an announcement for 50 semifinalist of Muslimah Beauty 2011. Honestly, three days before the announcement day, my little heart says that it is not me, it is a fake if I had to follow the rules. Common, be a role model for muslimah? I’m too cocky if I thought I could be. Who am i? I’m still full of mistakes, I’m too far from being even near perfect!. And I look back to some my answers that were asked by some of my friends and other participants of Muslimah Beauty 2011, it isn’t me, it is the one I wanna be someday, but not yet. To be (near) perfect needs lots’ process, it is not a ‘voila’ process. I’m learning a lot. I asked to myself, what’s the point to be like I’m now, trying to look beautiful, insist to have stuffs exactly the same that features on the magazine or blog, making my look attractive day by day, and what for it’s all about? A glance of men’s eyes staring at me? Abundance compliments? Or don’t I ever think, is Allah satisfied with what I have done?.

I’m not offending anyone else, but the questions are dedicated for myself.

To be beautiful for a woman is not a bad deed. But Islam has its command and I believe it is a  goodness for us. 

I really like and adore some community that has made Head Cover/jilbab more attractive, subhanallah I believe that they has changed many Muslim women into a decision to cover their hair with scarf. They’ve created many styles to make Muslim women more attractive with their jilbab. 

But when things come into consumerism, like every day they want to shop a very glamorous dress, expensive scarf or pricey shoes only for the sake of ‘Follow the fashion GODDESS’ , it become misleading.

The intention is straying. Covering your hair is not because Allah SWT anymore. The modesty is lost.

At the end, I realized, that I’m running on the wrong path, I’m tired but the result is null.

I’ve once answer a question from one of my friend like this : Islam is simple. Allah SWT never let us trapped in difficulties. Everything has its answer, has its own way out. The only thing that makes things seem so complicated is us. 

Subhanallah, I have that concept in my mind, but sometimes I forget and not apply that in my life. I hope from now on, I can back to the right path where Allah SWT ridho with me.