WOWWW my life has been so amazing lately.. so many things happened.. it's a turning point.. i've resigned from office on 19th February 2012.. and everything turn out to be different! it could more than one post if i have to tell you all what was happened.. but i will tell you briefly that i feel so free now and i can do what i want to do without any burden.. okey i'm not denying that financial thing is the only thing that puzzled me now.. but i believe i could cope with this thing,,,
anyway.. a friend of mine gave me two days freepass on last java jazz festival.. it's amazing.. since i love jazz very much! and i could watch my favorite jazz musician live performance..im so amazed by them!! will watch next year Java Jazz festival, Insya Allah :) let the photos tell you :)
Depapepe (duo guitar instrument from Japan).. i love them! :)
It’s February.. the most lovely month off all.. hihihi it’s not because people celebrate Valentine’s day, but this month is my bday month.
I’m kind of freakin out.. I’m turning 24 soon.. remember when I was a child.. what I was thinking about a women of 24 is a mature, they are ready to marry and have a baby.
It’s so ridiculous that now I’m on that stage.. and I don’t think I am mature in this age. I can earn sum of bucks to cover all my needs now, but mentally I feel so immature.. I couldn’t be far away from my mom, I’m still depend on her for everything. I’m still thinking when I get trouble, my parents will help me anyway, so I don’t have to be afraid of anything. I don’t depend my self to solve my problem. Is it happen to everyone or is it just me? before the day I’m turning 24 coming, I want to list some facts about me.. all are random things..to nudge my senses.. :)
1.I’m running a great Korean actor fanbase for Indonesia @KangJiHwanIndo , I’m having so much fun to do this, I love Kang Ji Hwan not because he is good looking (but undeniable, handsome is one point), but because his great work on acting.. he is not the one who worrying much about being perfect in front of public, but he did worry about being ugly in acting! I’ll make a review of this actor in another post. It’s too short to make it just one point hehehe.
2.I love make up so much that I’m thinking to make this new fondness to be my future carrier. I love to transform people to be different from they are in common. I do myself experiment when I go to work.. People will think that I am too much, ..who cares if you disagree, you are not me.. who made you KING OF ANYTHING?? (Lah jadi nyanyiiii..) :p
3.I have a new hobby : watching Kdrama until late at night.. or before I go to sleep I have to watch Kdrama or Kmovie at least one episode!
4.I love Kpop too.. 70% of my ipod song list is korean song. I love 2NE1, IU, and listening a lot to Kdrama original soundtrack.. I could listen ost. My fair lady ( I Love You) like thousand times or jingle Lotte Duty Free..i like the jingle so much that I could listen the song hundred times!
5.I can’t sleep before 12 AM.
6.I have an obsession to Bebek Slamet (brand of spicy fried duck that has super DEAD HOT chili). I have regular time to eat that. Now it become exaggerating, i eat two portion of this spicy fried duck in time! Hehehe one is not enough!
7.I love my bed room so much, especially my bed side table where I put all my make up utensils.
8.I have to kiss chilo before I leave home.
9.I had weird dreams lately.. most of them is about the thing in the future that I’m worrying so much.. I wish I could meet Kang Ji Hwan in my dream hufhhh..
10.I’m on the stage of enjoying my life so much, not worrying so much about what will happen in the future or the past that hurts me a lot. I have lots of obsession but it keeps me chills to face the reality.. I know Who direct my life so well, so I trust Him to do the best on my life script.
11.I want anything that I want on my birthday hahahaha my last year birthday is a dream come true.. I don’t ask anything more than that.. I’m grateful more than I expected.
Eleven… means.. this month of eleven is… hahahahahhahahaha… see ya..
i'm obsessed with make up lately, i don't know when it was started but it was happened gradually. I never go to a salon or a beauty center frequently, i hate spending hours in salon, i do a body and hair treatment in my home, even when i have to attend a special occasion, i do my make up by my self . I'm not expert of course, but i'm enjoying 'trial and error process' of my make up skill. Now, i'm collecting make up tools, yes they are expensive! in make up : you have money you'll get quality. so, i'm getting frustrated when i realized that my 40 % expense was spent to buy make up tools. I hope this hobby will earn back my money.. hmm let's see my first project in January, i will do a make up and jilbab do for Puche & Panji's wedding committee.
Talking about my inspiration on make up, i really love natural, flawless and subtle but look stunning. and i,m fallin in love with Jung Saem Mool make up style. She proves us that make up not always put everything colorful and make you face like 'a clown'. With a right technique and right material, you can make your face stunning and different. i can't explain more in good words, just check her Youtube channel here or FB .. and i bet you will fall in love with her make up style!
this one is my favourite video, for everyday look!
Today , my second biggest failure in my life is happened. I remember last month a psychiatrist asked me to tell her about my biggest failure in my life, I was thinking for a while, and finally I said to her about the moment that I consider it as my big failure, it was when I failed to enter Universitas Indonesia (UI).I was so devastated at that time. The time keeps going on after that. Instead I had no choices at that time, I passed the university enrollment test with my alternate choices, it is Universitas Negeri Jakarta majoring English Literature. I was living my life with the biggest regret in my heart. But that regretful makes me live my life in a better way. I promise to myself that I can be better than them who could enter UI, I want the world to see me not because my university where I studied, but because of Me, yes,because of my own ability. Until finally Allah has opened my eyes, that I could be more than what I expected I could be.
these are what has happened after that..
I only took 3,5 years to graduate from university with cumlaude predicate, and I’ve got my first job as a translator in ENS TVRI even before I graduated. And now, I’m working as a secretary of director at PT. Slog Oil & Gas. The story runs so smooth and it was nice overall.
And why I face the second biggest failure today?
In my previous post, I’ve told that I’ve passed the fourth phase of BPK employee recruitment, and today is the final decision. And I didn’t make it.
594-55-10-3-2
That’s the statistic number of employee recruitment on my majoring (English Literature)
I’ve passed until the number of 3.. then I failed to next step, to be the two people that they need. i'm the only one who had been dumped at last.
It’s so hard to face because I’ve already in a position one more step towards the destination and suddenly it has to stop.
So many ‘why’ are flying in my mind. The top ‘why’ come out in my mind is “why I didn’t fail in the first phase, second phase or third phase when i won't be the only one person who fail?”
of course it is so hurt and hard for me. but then I recall all my experiences when I have to face my first failure, I know it’s a trigger to my success in the future, just like what has already happened in my life before.
I really don’t have a right to decide what destiny is the best for me, Allah SWT does.
Thanks Allah that I still have so many things to thankful including my mom and my lovely people who never stop to encourage me. They mean gold for me.
I promise to stop grieving .. hmmm maybe in two or three days.. hehehe
I’ll continue my life, and I will never stop to reach my dream,, I know You are with me, Allah SWT, Ash Shamadu Al Mujiibu.
Another destination place on my last holiday in Bali is Don Antonio Blanco museum. It’s located in Ubud. Despite I have been in Bali many times, that was the first time I went to Ubud, and I fell in love straightly with this village! Subhannallah! I couldn’t stop stare at the village along our trip there. You can see many sculpture, wood craving, and art boutiques along the road in Ubud. Everything is so artistic and the atmosphere is so peaceful. Before we went to Ubud we had lunch for a while at a restaurant, GOD I forgot the name, but it is Bali traditional rice, and the taste so hot and delicious!!
delicious traditional rice at Ubud.. super HOT! many foreigners come to eat this rice.
Finally we arrived at Antonio Blanco Museum. I was amazed to see the museum, it is like a forest house with many trees and birds. We have to pay IDR 30,000 for the entrance ticket.
Before we entered the gallery, we stopped for a while to take a picture with some beautiful birds, one of them is a Peacock and the other is a Hornbill. They are super cute and tame. I take some picture with them and I fell in love with them, I want to take them home with me. hehehe
me with the peacock and .. who is your name the cute greeny birdy??
the big hornbill!
Ghani and Me with our babies :) look, i'm the black he is the white! represent our skin right?? >.<
the lil greeny birdy!
And we entered the gallery. We can not take a picture there to avoid a piracy. You know? I’m not really into artistic painting, but there, when I saw all Mr. Blanco’s painting I was trembling. It’s very beautiful! Though he has been painted almost the naked body of women ( most of them are her wife body , Ni Ronji), but I don’t see any porn side there, it’s all beautiful and magic. Oh ya, it’s weird when I saw the replica of Mr. Blanco’s painting, I didn’t feel the same impression as I saw the original one. You should go there to feel the magic.
the gate
painting room..
hahaha he imitated mario blanco ( son of antonio blnaco) face
the gate of gallery
the painting with teapot frame :)
you can see the website of Antonio Blanco Museum here
It starts from an offer from my bf’s college friend, Garit. She offered my bf and me a promo ticket to Bali from air asia. At first she said that the trip would be on September 2011, and then we approved to take the ticket. But Un(fortunately), the September trip was fully booked! And Garit searched for another trip that still in Promo price. And finally the date came up on February 10 to February 13.. we've got the return ticket JKT-DPS-JKT for only IDR 400,000 oooh how I love the date when she was offered me! It means one thing for me! For the first time I would be out of town on my birthday! Yippiiiiie and it’s BALI! Where you can breathe a holiday air everywhere.. It’s been so long since I was last went to Bali, I remember the last time I went with my aunty, my brother, and my passed-away granny , mbah uti :(.
Then the date was come! I was over excited, more than anything! Alhamdulillah I’ve got permission from my bos and of course my parents who allow me to go for holiday with my BF since we will stay at my cousin’s house, Ka devi. So, it would be holiday without Hostelling :). And of course I keep their trust to me, and heyyy our intention is just Holiday! No other intention beyond that :p So I don’t care people talking bad about me, as long as my parents trust me, it’s enough to be a God approval :).
Skip skip skip.. too long to describe all the details as I said before, I was over excited and everything became so fascinating to me..
First day and arrived..
It was about 11 pm Bali local time (one hour difference from Jakarta). My cousin Ka devi had been waiting for me about an hour at airport, huuhuu I really missed her so much. And luckily during our holiday in Bali she would accompany us everywhere we go! She took two working days off for us, how lovely she is! So transportation matter is wrapped! Hehe.
We will stay at Ka devi’s house at Monang Maning Denpasar, so we decided to take a turn way to look a night life at Bali especially at Jalan Legian, where the Bali Bomb tragedy occurred several years ago. And ya ya ya.. I knew now why our extremes really enthusiastic to throw a bomb on that place ahahahha it’s a place where you can find a (temporal) happiness :) , Dancing, singing, drinking, laughing.. till you drop and losing memory :)
And finally the clock was ticking I was like guessing something.. hahaha and my blackberry reminder went off, I read the details on my BB screen.. “Fridha Kusumawardani Birthday is now!” buahahhahaha
my 23 birthday cake :)
Then the drama was starting… my BF took a tiramisu cake from behind the car (it’s one of conspiracy between Ka devi n my BF, I don’t know at all about this plan ) and lighted the candles.. oh and yeess everybody in the car singing happy birthday song for me… what a sweetttttttt moment kan? Hahaha.. Alhamdulilah. My birthday eve in Bali, with a view of people singing and dancing along the street, in the middle of my beloved people and they were beside me :) I’m so happy Alhamdulilah ya Allah and the birthday surprise not stop in here.. will be continue.. Insya Allah :)
at terminal 3 SOETA Airport
i'm too excited and couldn't shut my eyes off :) hazelnut is my bestfriend!
he looked sexy tante-tante on that magazine.. fiuhhh
Why do we read Quran, even if we can’t understand a single Arabic word???? This is a beautiful story.
An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Quran. His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could. One day the grandson asked, “Grandpa! I try to read the Quran just like you but I don’t understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Qur’an do?” The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied, “Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water. The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, “You’ll have to move a little faster next time,” and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead. The old man said, “I don’t want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You’re just aganot trying hard enough,” and he went out the door to watch the boy try in.
At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house. The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty. Out of breath, he said, “See Grandpa, it’s useless!” “So you think it is useless?” The old man said, “Look at the basket.”
The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out. Son, that’s what happens when you read the Qur’an. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives.”
a special month of all when the gate of paradise is open and you can gain as much as reward from Allah SWT.
this month is always full of joy, blessing and wealth. i wish i could do all the obligations correctly in this month better than last year. and i wish a miracle will happen to me and my family :) esp for my dad, i pray for him to get back on the right track :)
happy fasting everyone, let's enjoy every day in this Ramadan as noone knows, we will meet Ramadan next year or not ! :)
Finally...that's the word i've said when i first arrived at JIExpo Kemayoran Jakarta.. the place where Jakarta Fair or Pekan Raya Jakarta is hold. Jakarta Fair is an annual event in Jakarta that held around june - july to celebrate Jakarta's anniversary. the first Jakarta Fair was held on 1968 in Suharto's Era..and it's like a must when the event hold, Jakartans or dwellers who live around jakarta visit the fair..
and me, in my old 22 now, i've never been to PRJ ( the short name of Jakarta Fair)..until last saturday (June 19), my boyfriend and our friends took me to the PRJ! hoyayyy... like a dream come true (too much..) it just like i feel so curious why everybody ever been there, and i've never..hihihi
i had no idea what PRJ is about before i came there, i thought it was a (not too large in my mind) large field crowd with people and stands that offer products just like in school bazaar.. ridiculous when i saw the real PRJ (not in my mind)..it is GREAT! like 1 million times my thought! the field is not a field.. it is a super massive field as it is apparently had became an airport in the past, no wonder! the stands is also not a small stand that i used to see in malls..it's like a showroom...huuuuaaaa i amazed! it's all beyond my expectation!
all the products including foods, drinks, electronic, automotive, clothing, accesories, furniture are displayed attractively..wow almost all what you need are available there! plus you can get a big discount for all products..all in SALE!! and poor me.. i didn't bought enough money there..but actually i didn't plan to shopping, i just want to see the euphoria of the event and see the people excitement..and it make my weekend so BLAST! thanks to boyfie and friends :)
the ticket : IDR 20K
near Gambir Expo, the rainbow appeared after the rain stopped
one of the must ice cream in PRJ Bungeo Ssamankho (korean ice cream)! vanila+red bean & expresso ! delicious!
me & my besty Tria..with Zakumi.
my favorite SPB (Sales Promotion Boy)..he makes me want the ice cream more and more :p
anyway..
HAPPY 483rd ANNIVERSARY to the capital city of Indonesia JAKARTA!
please don't build any malls anymore, build many parks and don't let people have car more than one!
give the very best facility to the pedestrian and bikers.
Have you ever know a typical someone in your life who always showing off anything though it's only a small thing that anybody could afford it? i bet you have..
I found this typical person, actually it called re-found, cause she is actually the person of my past, and just showing up again in my life lately. I remember when i realized this person has a show-off personality, was when she sucked a cup a cups lollipop as if anybody can't afford to buy the lollipop! yaks it was when i'm in junior hi school. and now the thing become so big because since twitter has become a very-hits micro blog, she could channel the things that she wanna show up to the world. ohh geeezz..u can see her timeline full off the things that people will sick to read..she always say about name of brand of the stuff she owned, tell everybody the restaurants where she was dinner (never forget to take pict of the foods), explain clearly that she is drive a car, and other things became so over the top cause she says it in almost every minute! she is exaggerating way too much..
oh gosh..if i continue this, it seems like i'm gossiping about her (try to be a saint ;p..FAIL)..yes okey, i did gossiping her with my other friends but then i think positively from her case..and finally i can figure it out into a good lesson for me and maybe for others..hihihi..
in a moment of your life, you will face various situations, bad or good , lucky or unlucky, happy or sad..your life is in a rotating wheel, sometimes u will hit gravels or even big stones..but the wheel must through the path, so you have to make sure that the wheel keep rotating..so we can say that all the conditions is what we'll face in this life. being survive to keep alive is not a choice, it's a must. but when we feel the conditions is not fit with your expectation, just remember that God will give everything that you need not everything that you want. i impressed by a sentence of my friend on her FB status, she said that :
"God gives u answers in 3 ways: YES & God gives u what u want. NO & God gives u something better, or WAIT & God gives u the best."
and i think if every human have this sentence in their heart, there is no more negative prejudice to God..
i've said to my self, to not being ridiculous by having a pompous desire to be the person who makes me jealous because she/he has anything that i can't afford. just take my portion as a God creature with all the accessories, and not being mourn of it. so i will never show off to the world of everything that i have, cause i realized, when i look down, there're many people who still keep survive even if their life is far more unlucky than me, and i don't wanna be an arrogant or show off to the world, because when i look up, there are so many great people in this world, so i keep my feet back on the ground..i still have to learn many things..:))
It’s been long time not to write on this blog! Hey it is now 2010 and there are so many bad and good things have been left from the Yesteryear..i just wanna quote some imperative events that happened in 2009, because for me, 2009 was such a great year in my life..so many things to learn from the year where I stepped my life forward..let me break into a monthly event :
January 2009
the soulmate was exist!
I was still on my effort to finish my thesis on time..yes u can imagine the situation..late night activity almost every day, just have my sleep time about 3 or 4 hours, and I eat meals like a pig,,it is the effect of keep my eyes wide open on late at night. just for info, I get 5 kg weight only a month tahahaha! Yes it’s all because I was chased by the deadline! This time was my up and down moment..Life ooh life..
and how about Love thingy?
Hmm actually it’s a big..oh no Very massive secret that I’ll reveal here. I was destined to meet my compatible man ever! Though it is just in my dream to possess him as a whole, at least I have a very more-than-great moment with him..at the end I found one theory of mine..that perfection is absolutely impossible to be possessed by a human, it’s Only God’s authority ..then let it be happened in heaven, n let me just thank to God for tasting a bit sweet of heaven kiss.
February 2009
This is my birthmonth!
But no surprises except from my TVRI besties. I’ve got very cute Winnie-the-pooh bday cake, gift, ang yummy food at Ming Village Sency. And at the the end of the month, I registered my thesis to the University’s administration to get my thesis trial date! Tararararang…
March 2009
A + Cumlaude
March 14 09 was my important day ever! It is the determination day for my 3,5 years efforts in University. And it turned to be a very bright day for me as the result..i’ve got A for my thesis…Mr.cumlaude I’m coming to you..one of my duty is done! Ibu & papa..it is dedicated for u..
April 2009
Met many awesome people!
I joined the PPAN program. PPAN stands for Pertukaran Pelajar Antar Negara..haha sound very genius right,youth exchange program!.. I was competing to find ONE place to CANADA..to be an A1, the representative young from Indonesia who will have some period of internship in Canada and Indonesia for almost a year..A1 is the most honorable title for a young man and woman in our country, it’s like u’ll be invited in each national event and wearing an A1 Blazer! Very cool yumm ?..And the result..of course I was failed with the sixty something others..hahaha.but the program has opened my eyes widely that there are so many effin brilliant, Genius, Creative yet humble young teenagers in the province I live (West Java), so the brilliants are not only live at Jakarta as the adage says..”dunia tak selebar daun kelor boy!”..i’m very pleased to know them.
Mei 2009
The Graduation.
the baju kurung or kebaya i wore in my graduation day.
On my graduation day which was held at istora Senayan..i felt a lil bit gloomy..because I have no friends around me!! Only my nuclear family attended the graduation ceremony, as only Me and Indah who graduated early in our class,, yes we have finished our study in three and a half year (bwakakakak it sounds I’m showing off!)..so the graduation day is not very blast yet memorable only a glance of blink faces of my parents.
Juni 2009
one year to be forever..
This is the last full month I worked at TVRI..my lovely working place ever..and I have to leave them..and all the GOLD memory there..
Juli 2009
I have a new job!
I was accepted as a secretary to Director for Slog Oil &Gas company. And guess what? The office location, just like my dream when I was a kid, is on Mega Kuningan!one of prestigious office spot in my country. Thankful for the job.
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
what a long journey!
5 years anniversary with my lovely man. Though it should be not 5 years full (the broke up accident that he call it “kekhilafan”), but hey..5 years it’s a longggggggggg journey..but i never give up! Wish that I could have The God Blessing.
November 2009
He was graduated!
Heyy like UI didn’t want to let him go, the very-hard-to- get graduation!
December 2009
Happy!
My bf got his first job at KAP duren tiga..it means that his office very close to mine! He picked me up and sent me home almost everyday…lovely :)
And finally the new year was come…
The new year eve is very lovely yet blast moment ever!
Celebrated with my big family and my boyfie…lot of good food and Happy!
Wish I have a blast 2010 more than the yesteryear…
