PINKGREEN

i love the color combination of green and pink..
i think PINK and GREEN are the sweetest color of all..
i like them to be applied on stuffs..
PINK means love
GREEN means Go forwardddd ... (if you notice the traffic light :p)..

the monster doll boob beep in pink and green

 japan umbrella

 Nike shoes 

Timex watch in PINK&GREEN 

Bangle

i want a bed room totally like this!!

smiley cookies :)

somebody give me this cute bicycle??

chilo with pink & green scarf

Brotherhood

last sunday, i went to Indah's house (my university classmate). we made a visit of condolence since her lil brother has passed away. He was just sixteen years old, and even he haven't celebrate his sweet seventeen. i feel so sorry for Indah and her family. Indah and me had a beautiful and tough memory when we were finishing our mini thesis to get three and a half year graduation. so, when i heard her brother has passed away, i feel so sad. I know how it feels to be a sister and have a lil brother though i'm not too close to my brother, but deep inside i love him because he is my only one brother in the world, both of us were delivered from the same womb. 

anyway..

when visiting indah's house, i met my girls at university, Icha, Diah, Eko, Farah & Tria..it's been a long time not to see them (except Tria and Farah , because we meet regularly ).. we planned to a have regular meeting or "arisan" monthly that will be starting on November. yes i will love it, because it is always nice to have a tight bond with your best buddies.. :)

Farah, Tria, Diah, Me, and Icha

Kontes Foto Saat Indah Bersama Si Manis

mau ikutan lomba ini sama chiloku... tapi chilo gak makan yang merk ini.. gimana dong?

Kontes Foto Saat Indah Bersama Si Manis

cantik kan ? 

Mrs. Devgan

I genuinely love Kajol Devgan! She is so stunning for me! I begin to like her when I watched her movie “My name is Khan”, I’m falling in love with her for the reason that she represent the beautiful of Asian women. Brown skin, black hair, meaty, big & beautiful eyes, sweet, elegance, humble, and have a gorgeous smile are very asian women stereotype, and Kajol has all that criteria. 

Moreover, when the women in my age endeavor to transform their skin into white to imitate the Caucasoid (white skin race), or in my country they call it ‘ kebule-bulean’ , I’m proud to be born with brown skin. Despite the history records that tells the social class of dark or brown skin race is under the white skin race, I’m very proud of my skin, because the important point is that God never judge human from their skin. 

Another fact, brown, black or any other colored skin has more pigment than white skin; it means that they have a less risk for skin cancer. But the point is any color of skin that God gives you, be thankful of that, because the most important thing is not what colour of your skin, what shape of your face or where you from, but  how you maintain all the gifts that God given you to make it useful for others. Ugly, beautiful, tall, petite, black or white it doesn’t matter as long as you can spread happiness and kindness to others. that's the true happiness.

she's cute in pink

beauty is not always WHITE

smiling from the heart

Her very great acting with Shahruk Khan in movie ' My Name is Khan'

Is the woman on the right side look similar to Mrs. Devgan ?, except the big nose :p

anger management

Suddenly I thought  some moments when I really pissed off with somebody else.. in my opinion, I  consider my angry management is so-so, not too good or not too bad.. but there is a time when I totally burned, and my mind is control by my destructive delusions! Mostly, it happens when there are things which not suitable with what I want or if someone take my stuffs without my permission.. * double horns can suddenly appear on my head*..

But I’m tolerable enough to people, as long as I live, I always easy to forgive people though it is not easy to forget their mistakes :P. I’m a kind of people who will hide my uncomfortable feeling and let anybody around me comfortable with me. But if there are the things that really not endurable, I prefer talking the problem and get the solution as soon as possible, because I can’t live with sustained problems linger on me. 

I love a quote from Dr. Laurance J. Peter ( An American "hierarchiologist",  Educator  and   Writer) :

 “Speak when you are angry - and you'll make the best speech you'll ever regret.”

Because I often do this. Beside I become a wise speaker , you will never treat people rudely when you angry J.

let's peace  &  grin

the world will be loveable to live in :) 

10.10.10

when everybody try to plan their very best moment for their life in this unique date, me & my big family have to let her go forever.. my dearest grandma , Hj. R. Suharti binti R. Suharso.. she had left us forever to the better place where there are many angles who will take care of her..

one hand i feel so sad, because i will never meet her again, but in the other hand i feel so relieved, because she will never feel the terrible pain she had, when she still alive..

i pray to God to take care of her and also kakek, eyang mimi, n eyang aki who had left us first, and give them the best place in heaven.. those people are great for me, they contribute a lot in my life n however, they had taught me so many things and also shower me with many love..

i love you mbah uti..
kakek..
eyang mimi..
eyang aki..

i'm gonna miss u here, but i believe someday we'll meet again.. in the better place that Allah has  provide us. Insya Allah, amin ya Rabb..

Death On :)

this morning on my motorbike, he said this :


" maybe most of men have a cliche plan on their life, they want to be settled first, or to have enough saving, a car and a house before they marry a girl. but, I have my own target . i measure a settlement not from those properties, i think, the man who has settled is the man who has a guts to marry a woman without a lot of considerations.  And for me, i will be ready to marry you if i have finished my Bachelor degree, so i have a rational answer when your father ask me how i will make a living for you. Please wait for me until the time is come my dear. Then we can build our own castle together. Your my Queen and I'm your King. Forever will be."

Alhamdulilah, i know from the start, you are the rightest man for me.  :)

i'm hospitalized

in the middle of ramadhan, for the first time in my life i was hospitalized because of the duet illness , scarlet fever and typhus.. that was a very rough moment in my life.. i couldn't eat anything though my appetite was big.. my tummy refused anything i ate. 5 days in hospital makes me realized that to be health is a wonderful blessing from God and next time my health is back i will take care my body nicely. 
and thanks Ibu for taking care of me during my hospitalization.. i owe you so much.. 
and i promise to myself,  i don't wanna go back to hospital untill i give a birth! 

my first infusion

they took my blood sample twice a day

it's swollen :(

Ramadan Mubarak

the Ramadan is coming in town again... :)

a special month of all when the gate of paradise is open and you can gain as much as reward from Allah SWT.

this month is always full of joy, blessing and wealth. i wish i could do all the obligations correctly in this month better than last year. and i wish a miracle will happen to me and my family :) esp for my dad, i pray for him to get back on the right track :)

happy fasting everyone, let's enjoy every day in this Ramadan as noone knows, we will meet Ramadan next year or not ! :)

S.A.D

woooooooooooouooow :"(
i'm in terrible sad..
it's a second time i failed to adopt a cat..
with the same reason...
" the cat has been adopted by other"

why could they promise me to give me a cat, and when i've already prepared all the things to welcome the cat in my house, the cat is just not mine anymore.

 

they are too cute to be ignored... :"(  i want the one with long hair.. i"m craving so much for it..anyone?..

tik tok tik

i don't feel like i want to write something crucial..but i feel very good today..good in a way of my mood..i don't know exactly why it can be good..it could be because i dress well today and i had more than enough sleeping time last night. and today actually my special day with my boyfriend. Since we are officially a couple in October 5 2004, and today we have been 5 years and 10 months..for God Sake, it's a long journey, rocky, quirky, dreadful, and awesome...


and now suddenly i have a mood to write about my relationship..(remember at the first sentence i don't put any intention or any idea to write).


rrrrrrhhh aakansjdbjkbefjrfrklbfgrlgbrlkbgkenw;lgnew;'.......""""""".......(-,-")


nooo..it changed again! i don't want to elaborate anything about my relationship..hahaha
i just want to share you about the big lesson i've got from this long journey relationship..


" if you are getting into a relationship that you choose yourself, never give up on your relationship,for any obstacles you face or possibly face, till you get the point of comfortable, because anything can be changed and your sacrifices must be paid! the bad things you scared it's 99% never happened. But the most important thing is that you have to follow your intuition  because it is The God of your action (after asking for The (real) God guidance). believe me, time will answer anything.. if the girl/boy is good for you, they will never go anywhere but your side.trust me, what you reap is what you get."


5 years more is worthed for what i've got now...thanks dear..

"Life is all about timing... the unreachable becomes reachable, the unavailable become available, the unattainable... attainable. Have the patience, wait it out It's all about timing.”

Stacey Charter quotes

Word Stacey!!

When the blackberry is at one level above the God Almighty..

Inspired by an article I’ve read in Kaskus.us about how life of one person can be changed by a blackberry, i want to write some of my opinions here about the same case..

Blackberry is a new colonizer in this era,, I often hear people say “blackberry generation” to dub today generation.  It’s like generalize people that they are all choosing blackberry as their communication gadget. I don’t know when or who was starting this blackberry phenomenon, but one thing for sure, this sophisticated gadget has changed the life of people or even more the world civilization.

I, myself is a blackberry (BB) user, undeniable, at first I was attempted to use BB because of the trend. Yeah, I was a trend victim. But surprisingly for me, it is the first hand phone I bought from my own money without my parents support. Before using BB I was a nokia fetish. But I don’t know where the strong temptation was come from, I really wanted to have BB at that time.

And now… BB becomes my heart pumper. I wonder how this 52 cm square thing can change human life to be dependent of it.

I’ve read some articles that tell about the negative impact of BB include the research of mental disorder of BB user, and it’s like a mirror for me. How BB can change the way you socialize to people, it makes me frowning and thinking.

In the past, before the BB mushrooming, I used my cell phone  only to call my friends and my family to tell them important information, or to say hay on the text. Now, BB (as if) can do anything you want to, and it provides what u wants in only less a minute. You make every minutes or even every second an important moment to share the world though actually it’s not a big important to be shared. You force people to know what happening with you in every single time. Yourself updates become so exaggerating.

One thing that makes me so ashamed that now, every time I woke up in the morning, I always look for my BB and check out the notification on it, and waste almost an hour to reply the message, email, bbm, twitter or else. And I realized, it is very a bad habit since now I give more priority to my BB than to pray and thank God for the greatest life He gives to me. Embarrassing.  

the angle is also using BB gemini to take her picture :p

this is for you love..on your birthday.. :)

Happy birthday Love

rancorous

I accept your apology, you're forgiven,
But don't think I'll forget what you did
How could I possibly forget?
Those endless moments you left me dying
The sleepless nights I spent thinking of you
The time I wasted, waiting for you 
I'll never get them back
I'm living again, but part of me's gone
I'm living again, but I'll never get back those lost moments in my life

I can't forget the bad times
The hard times
The pained times
I forgive everything you've ever done
I still love you even more and more
Still want to be with you
Still want to hold you
After everything 
Everything I've forgiven

Is this the way I'll always live?
Torn apart by memories
Torn apart by forgiven sins
Forgiven nightmares
Forgiven abuse
This is how I'll live, forgiven but not forgotten.

Jakarta Fair

Finally...that's the word i've said when i first arrived at JIExpo Kemayoran Jakarta.. the place where Jakarta Fair or  Pekan Raya Jakarta is hold.  Jakarta Fair is an annual event in Jakarta that held around june - july to celebrate Jakarta's anniversary. the first Jakarta Fair was held on 1968 in Suharto's Era..and it's like a must when the event hold, Jakartans or dwellers who live around jakarta visit the fair..

and me, in my old 22 now, i've never been to PRJ ( the short name of Jakarta Fair)..until last saturday (June 19), my boyfriend and our friends took me to the PRJ! hoyayyy... like a dream come true (too much..) it just like i feel so curious why everybody ever been there, and i've never..hihihi

i had no idea what  PRJ is about before i came there, i thought it was a (not too large in my mind) large field crowd with people and stands that offer products just like in school bazaar.. ridiculous when i saw the real PRJ (not in my mind)..it is GREAT! like 1 million times my thought! the field is not a field.. it is a super massive field as it is apparently had became an airport in the past, no wonder! the stands is also not a small stand that i used to see in malls..it's like a showroom...huuuuaaaa i amazed! it's all beyond my expectation!
all the products including foods, drinks, electronic, automotive, clothing, accesories, furniture are displayed attractively..wow almost all what you need are available there! plus you can get a big discount for all products..all in SALE!! and poor me.. i didn't bought enough money there..but actually i didn't plan to shopping, i just want to see the euphoria of the event and see the people excitement..and it make my weekend so BLAST! thanks to boyfie and friends :)

the ticket : IDR 20K 

near Gambir Expo, the rainbow appeared after the rain stopped

one of the must ice cream in PRJ Bungeo Ssamankho (korean ice cream)! vanila+red bean & expresso ! delicious!

me &  my besty Tria..with Zakumi.

my favorite SPB (Sales Promotion Boy)..he makes me want the ice cream more and more :p

anyway..

HAPPY 483rd ANNIVERSARY to the capital city of Indonesia JAKARTA!

please don't build any malls anymore, build many parks and don't let people have car more than one! 

give the very best facility to the pedestrian and bikers.

I LOVE JAKARTA

thing can not be forgotten

To forget the mistakes of someone is more difficult than to forget my own mistakes to him/her..

it's a very bad behaviour, yes i know, but to heal the broken heart is not that easy. Our heart is just like a broken glass that have been glued, though the glass is back to a normal shape however the scar will always be seen..

i know it is something in the past, and everything has changed to be better..but still, i can not forget how SHE took my half soul from me.. without knowing my existence and how hurt to be me at this time..

it's all become a deadly virus in my life, i keep on thingking that someday she will back to stole my half soul again..

it is because i feel so theatened with her, i don't know why, maybe because she is more beautiful than me, or smarter than me, and all her charms will steal his heart, again...

all that thoughts is driving me insane!

i feel so sad
i feel so dissapointed
i feel so pissed off

and top of all..

i won't forget these all..
sorry..i just can't.
i will take this till i leave this world,
maybe...

weekender..

“The only reason why we ask other people how their weekend was is so we can tell them about our own weekend"  Chuck Palahniuk

i always waiting for my weekend moment..it's always almost all about making fun with people i love the most in my life, my family, my boyfie and my besty..

when i was a kid, weekend is a breaking day of school it means one night in whole day when i don't need to think about my homework or task from my teacher, and when the sunday morning comes it means that i don't have to take a bath early and i can watch a continous kid movie until 12 pm. i really loved watching doraemon and i become a cat lover because that movie, untill i found that doraemon is only a blue fat cat doll who doesn't have anything in his pocket ( i checked it on the Golden Truly mall, when i was in the 6th grade). The Doraemon thing has dissapointed me so much. there is no real cat who can grant my wish, they only make things so bad besides their cuteness. HAHA that's a small picture of my weekend moment in the past. 

but now...

weekend is like a rest day..where u can have a body n mind relax..having a monotonous activity during the weekdays make ur nerves so stiff, so these two days, saturday n sunday are the best day to have a refreshment!! i love to spent my weekend with my big family, my aunties, my uncles and my cousins, also my nephew n niece..we ussually gather in my grandma house, eating the foods that are made by us, or just chit chating till late at night, it is hillarious n warm! or having the whole weekend with my besty, we ussually spent the day to some places in the town or traveling out of town! and last but not least..i love the moment with my boyfie..actually i've already rarely spent my weekend only both of us, we ussually take our friends with us, it's more fun. :) 

my weekend with him in Curug Cikaso, Sukabumi, West Java (June 6 2010)

this is the most common thing for us on the weekend, out for eating!

snorkling with friends (Pramuka land,Thousands Island)

Dinner with my family :)

Me and him in 20 years

this is me in 20 years..
hmm looks like an Arabian mommy who has 9 children and doesn't have enough time anymore to have a body treatment...

and this is him in 20 years..

hmmm.. he's still handsome and a daddy of 9 children..Rock on you baby! ;p

the point is...there is no forever young...everything that new will be old someday..;p

my extended driving license..finally..

yehaaay..after pending it for almost 4 months, finally i have my driving license renewed! all the process to get my driving license to be extended is by my self without being accompanied by mother anymore..actually that's the point. I proud of my self because now i am not a liltle girl anymore..i can do it by my self..hehehe..

i have a full gut to drive my motorcycle at full speed without worrying the police will ask  my (expired) driving license ;p , now it has been renewed!

home sweet home

i miss to live in my parents house (the house now is being renovated)..does it means my house also? whatever.. one thing for sure, i find a freedom there..you know old proverb that says Home Sweet Home? it really is true.. when you stay in a fancy mansion or physically the house is more beautiful than your house, you still don't feel it is a home..then finally you really missing to back to your own house though the house is only a hut...

i miss my room..

i miss to stay a long day in my house..

i miss to invite everybody i like to my house..

most of the top...

i miss to take  care of my cats that i have been neglecting for this 6 months..i miss them so..

God give us your hands to make the day come true..the day when i come back to my house..i beg you GOD..

IBU..you are the greatest thing i needed most!

Last night I had a horrible dream ever!! i don’t remember exactly the chronology , but one thing for sure , and the most frightening moment on that dream is when I see my mother lying on a divan, covered with batik cloth and there are many people around her who read Yasin.. and that scene on my dream has made me crying histerically, I cried her name and suddenly I woke up and realized that my tears is keep running on my cheek..my thoughts flying away.. I pronounced istigfar and hamdalah in the same time..astagfirullah for I remember that I have so many fault to her, hamdalah for it just a dream and i ‘m still given one more chance to see my mom and to say sorry to her for all mistakes I’ve done.

The dream is just like a ‘wake-up call’ in my life, especially for my bond with my mom..for 22 years I’ve been delivered by her, I know deep inside my heart, that she is my real guardian angle, she’s the master of every task. For all the things I didn’t say to her, about how I felt along the way, it doesn’t mean I don’t love her much. Me n mom don’t get used to express our feeling by our body language or sweetest words, but we both know we love each other. Especially her, I know she love me much and she will do anything..ANYTHING she can just to give me the best thing I need..though it has to sacrifice herself.

The dream makes me realized that she is the most important thing in my life , I place her after ALLAH SWT, and simply I can’t live without her. I can imagine what if the dream is real, one thing for sure I’m not ready for now, I still need her much, I want to make my mom happy, I want to grant her wish, I hope in the near time, I know she really want to see Borobudur  and Prambanan temple, walking on Jogja and Solo streets, I want to stand 5 cm in front of Ka’bah with her, I want to take her traveling to the place she really want to be there and give her any stuffs she likes. God please grant my wish, don’t take her  from this world. I know dead it’s all human destiny, but please, don’t decide her dead before I grant her wish. As I always ask You in my every prayer God, give my mom happiness in this world, and give her the best spot in Your heaven. For all the terrible things she have been through in live, and she keeps hangin on , I know she deserve it. I love you Ibu.

God I know you came to me through my dream..

I know u woke me up through your message on that dream..

May be I am a biggest sinner

You got me into this situation

I have to be more caring to her

I have to be more loving to her

I promise God, I will take this chance, to give her the best thing I can.

I will never frowning, angry, and yelling to her anymore.

God Grant my wish for her J

never knew i needed

every time I listen to this song my  feeling immediately become so creepy ..somehow it continues to poison my mind..it turns out that you really have occupied a few spots in my heart, although at the first time i feel much doubt, but every time I think about you, it all make me so confuzzled.i never thought before it will be happened, i vowed to my self n i' m sure that i will never have more than one person to place in my heart, and suddenly now it could be a little turned around because of you, and nobody can do that. Previously, Many who had tried but my faithfulness to him was never wavered, and now YOU  shakes my defenses ..

like the words in this song .. it's all fit for you!


For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took me
I knew that I had, everything that I wanted to have
You made me see there was something missing
For the ending of my first begin
Oh yeah yeah, oh yeah yeah oh
And, for the rare and unexpected friend
Oh yeah yeah oh yeah yeah oh
For the way you're something that I would never choose
But at the same time something I don't wanna loose
I don't ever wanna be without her again

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So, when you walked in, I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
See now it's so clear I need you here

My accidental happily ever after
The way you smile now you've gone for me
With your laughter
I must admit you weren't a part of "My Book"
But, now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter

You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you walked in I had no idea
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
See, now it's so clear I need you here

Who knew that I could be?
So unexpectedly
Undesierabley happy. Oh so with you
Right here right here next to me!

The Princess & the Frog - Ne-Yo "Never Knew I Needed"

my quote

There is a hidden sub text under the word 
'LIFE'. It is 'UNEASY'..-Fridha Kusumawardani-

Waking up the oldist..

hey bryan are u sleeping?

open your eyes, it's morning bryan..

yeaah finally u wake up...

owwwhh u ur smell like a dragon!

what do you wanna eat for breakfast? ...

bryan : "corned beef"

okey let me see on refrigerator..

i'll give u the corned beef but please just one smile bryan..

uhmm u r a sweet-old-lazy cat

even u can't afford to smile..

oke bryan..let's start this day with ..

بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمنِ الرَّحِيمِ

may Allah SWT bless me and you people..

he was my best listener..

TOMPI a.k.a empih

he can sing "balonku", i have a recording of his voice, it's so hilarious!! my mother once throw him on the pavement (poor you), and the next day, he came back to my house, with the expression like a sprinter who reaches a finish line!! oh God, he is do funny..unfortunetely he has been thrown for the second time by my mother, and he never comeback anymore..

on my uncle's car (was)

we don't have AC at living room, so he enter the refrigerator..

with his mother, hayu (on the left) and his brother, oyeng (middle)

in the middle of dolls, he looks like them. :)

playing hide and seek in my room. 

I.N.S.E.C.U.R.E

"when u realized that everything just not in the right position and u feel so unable to change the situation, it is God, the one and only, who will be the last shelter..u need God more than u need Food and Air to continue your life..
sometimes i deny, that God doesn't need me, but I, my self n my life need God,, inevitable.."